In the clouds
woke up in the clouds this morning—fog everywhere, as far as I could see. It was one of those mornings where everything felt soft and quiet. Of course, I was running late for school drop-off (nothing new there).
I grabbed both my Nikons on the way to the car and rushing the kids out the door, hoping I could get them to school and still make it back in time to shoot.
The whole drive was just fog and more fog. Trees would appear out of nowhere and then disappear just as fast. I kept checking the time, stressing a bit, but also feeling that little buzz of excitement because mornings like this don't happen often, especially at this time of year. It felt like I had to make the most of it.
By the time I got back home, the fog had started to lift a little, but there was still enough hanging around to give everything that dreamy, eerie vibe.
I was keen for the challenge of using both cameras, I am still in the stage of my project where I want to be comparing digital to film however, I could feel this little niggle of annoyance, I was starting to regret my project decision of shooting with multiple cameras and It was definitely this week that I started to lose interest in my pinhole camera. I think this was mostly because I couldn’t grasp the concept of slowing down and simply walking and shooting.
Today once I had gathered myself and decided that if I couldn’t relax then this class is not for me because what’s the point?
I didn’t really have a plan, I just walked. The paddocks around home looked unreal, like something out of a dream. The fences were dripping, the grass was soaked, and you couldn’t see too far ahead, which made everything feel kind of endless.
I started with the Nikon FA first, trying to be careful with my shots because I only had one roll of film. Every time I pressed the shutter, I hoped I’d judged it right no screen to check, no safety net. It actually felt pretty good once I settled into it, like I wasn’t second-guessing myself as much.
Looking back, I’m really glad I pushed myself to get out there today, even if it felt a bit rushed and chaotic at first. . It’s still a learning curve, but that’s part of the reason I’m doing this, to figure it all out without so much pressure. Even though I had the digital as backup, I tried to treat both cameras with the same slow, careful mindset. Not every shot will be perfect, and that’s okay. It’s about showing up, being out there, and letting the day unfold the way it wants to
